Friday, December 31, 2010

Paalam 2010

Sanga-sanga ang binagtas kong daan sa taong 2010. Walang direksyon bagkus puro tanong. Sumabay sa agos, nakipaglaro at nakipagbuno sa kapalaran. Wala akong hinawakan kundi ang pagbabakasaling sa isang dako maiibsan ang pagkahungkag sa aking puso. Inisa-isa ko ang pagyapak sa pedestal ng sinasabi ng ilan na dapat, niyakap ko pansamantala, at binitiwan. Bumalik ako sa daan na kung saan mas lalong nagdulot sa akin ng pagkalito, mas lalo ko itong niyakap at nilagay sa sistema, ikinintal sa tuliro kung isip na "doon" ako masaya. Maayos ko naman sanang nakasanayan ngunit sa isang iglap nagbago ang lahat. Ang matayog na pader na minsan aking itinayo nabuwal ng tuluyan. Walang natira kundi alala ng mapapait na salita. Tama, mali ako kasi namangka akong hindi hinog ang aking determinasyon at pinilit kung makalimot sa pamamagitan ng magandang bukas na ipinapangako sa aking paanan. Malaking pagkakamali na aking pinagsisihan dahil ang taong iyon kahit kailan hindi nararapat masaktan. Kahit ano pang sabihin ko, nangyari na. Nakasakit na ako, nagpaasa, at walang alibi na makakapagpagaan ng loob. Ito'y ibinibigay ko na lamang sa tamang panahon. Sana dumating iyong panahon na maghilom ang sakit. Para saiyo gitnang silangan, I'M SORRY! Babaunin ko pa rin ang masayang alala. Hangad ko ang iyong kaligayahan at sana dumating iyon oras na maging magkaibigan tayo.

Nagpapaalam din ako sa alala ng aking nakasama sa buhay. Batid kung ang katotohanan ay bukas sa karamihan ngunit ang pagpapatawad ay hindi pa napapanahon. Madaming bagay ang dapat tapusin subalit panahon ang magsasabi anong mabisang solusyon. Ang mahalaga sa akin, hindi ako nagkulang sa pamilyang natutunan ko ng mahalin.

Sa di inaasahan na oras dumating muli ang pagkakataon sa akin. Mabago ang lahat at mag-umpisa ng maayos, mangarap muli at unti-unting buuin ang naibuwal na tiwala sa sarili. Dumating ang lalaking tumanggap sa akin, gumabay para muli akong ibalik sa pamilyang nagkalinga sa akin at patuloy niyang hinahawakan ang aking mga kamay sa kabila ng aking kahinaan, pagkakamali at kapintasan. Sa kanya walang takot at pag-aatubili kong nasasabi ang lahat na walang paghuhusga. Aaminin ko isang sugal din ang pinasok ko sa umpisa ngunit sa buwan ng Nobyembre lumabas ang final decision na kanyang inaantay. Ang malaking hadlang ay tuluyan na ring naglaho in God's perfect time. Hindi ko pinangarap na mag-umpisa ng pamilya at mas lalong wala sa akin sistema ang magkaron ng anak ngunit sa isang iglap binago ang aking pananaw. I'm looking forward to having a family on my own. Strange isn't it? But now, i truly believes LOVE conquers all. Makikita sa aking mukha, sa aking aura ang pagkakuntento na hindi ko naramdaman noon. At handa na akong talikuran ang akin sariling pangarap para bumuo ng pamilyang dalawa naming hinahangad.

Mula Octubre hanggang ngayon biglang bumuhos ang pagpapala galing sa Kanya. Binusog ako ng mga regalo na hindi ko inasahan aking matatanggap. Unexpected praises and surprises. Madaming nagtatanong masaya ba daw talaga ako? Masayang masaya ako. Lahat ay smooth sailing. His family welcome me with so much love and care. They help us to start a life and i am certain they will be there through rough times.

Ang taong 2010 ay masasabi kong pinakamalungkot at masayang taon para sa akin. Malungkot dahil sinara ko ang pinto ng buhay na aking nakasalamuha sa mahabang panahon, masaya naman dahil natagpuan ko ang tao na handa ko ng pakasalan. Yes, i am engaged! Madaming pwedenga mangyari ngunit batid ng aking puso, ito na ang buhay na aking panghahawakan. At pangako namin sa isa't isa si Kristo ang magiging sentro ng aming relasyon. Araw-araw inaakay niya ako sa faith na nakalimutan ko na.

Sa huling pagkakataon, humihingi ako ng paumanhin sa nakasamaan ko ng loob. Akoý nagpapakumbaba at taos-pusong humihingi ng tawad.

Salamat sa mga kaibigan na hindi tumalikod sa akin, sa mga taong naniwala pa rin sa aking kakayahan at sa taong nagbigay ng sakit kasi kung hindi dahil sainyo hindi ko mahahanap ang mga tunay na kaibigan. Salamat sa PEBA, binuo ninyo ang aking pagkatao. Dahil sa PEBA mas lalo akong naging close sa Regalado's family. (at madaming gifts na binigay si Yiyi, laptop, camera, red envelope and necklace) ^_^

Manigong Bagong Taon sa lahat!

Thursday, December 30, 2010

December 26, 2010

What: Christmas Day-off
Where: Taipei 101, Dr. Sun Yat-sen Park, DXN Chritsmat Party, B-52 Disco House
Where: Heart of Taipei and Chungshan



in Taipei Municipal District. at my back the Taipei 101 (dubbed as the tallest bldg in world last 2004)

Citibank Christmas Tree


Inside the Taipei 101 Mall (the original planned was to go to the observatory deck but because of the occassion many tourists flocked, so we were not able to see the breathtaking view of Taipei) Though, i'm not giving up one of this day i will go back to experience the one in a lifetime ride.


The TRIO: Vicky (my best buddy way back then) and Ate Melba, my chaperon. hahaha! The ears and eyes of my hubby.



Where's my scarf?(lol) at the Saint Christopher Church




At Chungshan (Won-Won building)



DXN and Bicol Association Christmas Party

with Ate Wilma and Dianne


with the gang


B-52 Pub House (waitress: what your order Maám? Me: Cola....... then a wacky smile of people at the bar. So what?? cola is more expensive than a wine. lol!) haha!

The dance floor


The Bar
One my memorable christmas next to the moment i spent my christmas with my family. I had so much fun with a new found friends, a moments with my long long lost buddy, a sense of belongingness to the group w/c i was elected as officer year 2004. The welcoming hands of them reassured me more that i am one of the cherished member although it took years before i got the chance to celebrate/mingle with them. The Samahang Makata is inviting me to attend the New Year's Celebration too.
Christmas is a happy affair indeed. We strolled the whole Taipei. From Taipei 101 Mall, Dr. Sun Yat-Sen Park, Taipei Arena and Chungshan. We attended the DXN and Bicol Association christmas party with exchange gifts and parlor games. I was so lucky that day, i won in Simon says and Pinoy Henyo. Exchanging gifts was more colorful because Santa was very 'kalog''. Vicky invited me to accompany her in B-52 (she met her agent). Had a very funny experienced, someone gave me a glass of wine from the other table. Vicky was kind enough to take it in behalf of me. We only stayed in the bar for half and hour then we went to the souvenir shop.
This might be my last Christmas in Taiwan. If everything falls according to my plans, i don't have to go back abroad for a while but i always welcome the unexpected turn of event. Expect the unexpected.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Pinoy Got Talent

What: Pinoy Got Talent/ Paskong Pinoy
Where: Tatong Sports Center
When: December 19, 2010

The Stage

The Ugnayan Choir

The host/hostess ( one of my close friend in Taiwan, as she said " veterans of chungshiao")
Through her invitation thats why i came to the event.

The Pinoy Got Talent Season 3 Contestants


With a new found "kakwentuhan". Thanks to them, they welcome me in their group. (Migrante International Taiwan Chapter)


color of the day was yellow because the Ugnayan Minister supported the candidacy of President Noynoy Aquino.


Migrante International Officers


Before the program started we had a chance to click our camera. Funny day!


With Ms. Suico (pres of filipino community in Taiwan)


with Ms. Fan (former President of Bicol Association in Taiwan (BAIT)

with Irene, she lives just near our place.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

World International Flora Expo

What: World International Flora Expo
When: December 12, 2010
Where: Yuanshan Park Area
The long line (waited for almost half hour)




Holland

Greece

Inside the flower dome

Thailand



The Stage

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Beautiful in my Eyes

By: Joshua Kadison


You're my peace of mind in this crazy world.

You're everything I've tried to find, your love is a pearl.

You're my Mona Lisa, you're my rainbow skies,

and my only prayer is that you realize you'll always be beautiful in my eyes.


The world will turn and the seasons will change,

and all the leassons we will learn will be beautiful and strange.

We'll have our fill of tears, our share of sighs.


My only prayer is that you realize you'll always be beautiful in my eyes.

You will always be beautiful in my eyes.

And the passing years will show that you will always grow more beautiful in my eyes.


When there are lines upon my face form a lifetime of smiles,

and when the time comes to embrace for one long last while,

we can laugh about how time really flies.


We won't say goodbye 'cause true love never dies.

You'll always be beautiful in my eyes

You will always be beautiful in my eyes.


And the passing years will show that you will always grow more beautiful in my eyes.

The passing years will show that you will always grow ever more beautiful in my eyes.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Isang Pasasalamat

Hindi ko alam saan ako mag-uumpisa para ihayag ang aking nararamdaman. Ang aking entry sa PEBA ay isang paglalakbay para mahanap ang aking pagkatao at mabuo ang pira-pirasong pangarap. Pangarap na nabigyan ng katuparan sa pamamagitan ng pamilyang tumanggap at nagmamahal sa akin, ito ang Chien at Tsai family. They've been my pillar of strenght everytime the waves of uncertainties get into my senses.

Nakikipagbuno ako sa homesick at pagkabalisa. Ang Gumamela Sa Paraiso ay naging himlayan ng pagal kung kaluluwa. Sarili kung mundo para maibuhos ang tunay kung nararamdaman. Hindi ako natatakot sabihin ang aking pagkabigo, isulat ang mga pagkakamali at ilabas ang totoong nararamdaman. Ito rin ang naging daan ko para makita ang taong sumusuporta sa akin.

May nagtanong sa akin, ANO ANG MAKUKUHA MO SA PAGSALI SA PEBA? BAKIT BUKAMBIBIG MO ANG PEBA? MAY PERA BA SA PEBA? mga tanong na nakakainis sagutin ngunit bilang isang OFW kailangan kung ipaliwanag sa abot ng aking nalalaman at kakayahan. Nakakainsulto lang minsan dahil parang ang tingin ng ilan sumali ako para sa pera/para sa pansariling karangalan ang hindi nila alam ang PEBA ang naging tulay upang mas lalo kung isa-alang alang ang tungkulin ko bilang isang anak at isang OFW. Sa papanong paraaan? Na inspired ako sa kanilang adhikain, milya man ang pagitan nga mga volunteers pero hindi hadlang upang maisagawa ang pakikipagkapwa. Human brotherhood in spite of all the hardship. Isa sa hinahangaan kung bloggero ay si Kuya George. Hanga ako sa kanyang mga pananaw. Naging salamin ko para pangalagaan ng husto kung anong meron ako.

Maraming maraming salamat PEBA. Salamat sa mga kaibigan na nag iwan ng komento at nagbasa, sa mga judges at higit sa lahat sa bumubuo ng PEBA from volunteers and officers. Mula sa aking puso tatanawin kong malaking utang na loob ang pagpupugay na inyong inabot sa akin. Magigi ko itong sandata sa oras na nanlulumo ako at nawawalan ng pag-asa na sa kabila ng lahat ng pahihinagpis may grupo/taong naniniwala sa aking kakayahan.

Nakuha ko ang 7th Place in OFW division
The Regalado-Vitanzo family

In spite of their busy schedule, they managed to gave a spare room for the event because they knew it means something for me. (Kuya Reinnie, Ate Rosalie and Nina)


Inside the Teatrino, awaiting for the program. (until now i'm still in cloud nine, it never sink it yet that they attended the event). By the way they're not my real family, ate is my boyfriend eldest sister. (hopefully soon, she will be my sister in law)

with Mr. Felix Jigs Segs


With the PEBA president Mr. Nereus Jethro Abad

With Ms. Susan Ople (daughter of Sen. Blas Ople)


"We are proud of you" mga katagang nagbibigay ng assurance sa akin na sa kabila ng aking kahinaan andiyan sila para ipadama sa akin ang totoong pagkalinga. PEBA is indeed for family. I became more closer to my bf's family because of the event. The wall that i thought was there didn't exist at all. Thank you!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Christmas Card


Thank you for the christmas card that you sent. I am so delighted and touched for your effort. I'm looking forward to see you. More years to our friendship. Hopefully we remain best of friends untill we grow old. From the bottom of my heart THANK YOU.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Lesson For Today

Learn to appreciate the beauty of today.

Life is always beautiful to those who has a positive outlook, to those who suffered but still didn't let go the burning desire of HOPE. Life is crazy, life is unjust yet there is a sacred temple called camarederie. Once you learn to be compassionate in the needs of others and be humble even in times that "you think" you have the reason to stay on top the true essence of life will flow.

We learn from our own struggles. We learn from others, we learn from just listening, from using our senses but the most appealing thing is we only learn if we are courageous enough in admitting our faults. We are all accountable in our deeds.

Our actions are the mirror of who we are. We can't demand respect if we don't respect ourselves. We can't expect happiness, if the happiness we are holding was snatched from someone. Happiness is a life long process, it's not the feeling but the "it" in every circumtances.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Chance


Can we learn from our mistakes? Can we do things differently in the future and become better? Every now and again sone makes what appear to be an innocent mistakes. Either it will make or break us, it depend on our will power and character.Some were lucky enough to turn the table and never look back but some gone to pit and remain buried for the rest of their lives.

No one is perfect, every one deserve a second chance as they say. I am one of them. While there is no reason to doubt i indeed understand the needs to confront the devil inside me. Some witnessed how my life evolves in so called affair and some were disgusted of my choices. For some it was perplex, illogical and ridiculous but then again i've never fan of what other says towards me. I am good in hiding my self from my own shadows. In every chance to change i managed to convinced myself it was my own choice and turning back will be a betrayal and act of being a coward. It was my predicament all the time. Every good thing, happy moment was just another facade/wishful thinking because deep down the fact remain i was in a mess.


I've been trying so hard to abandoned the ship, yet the courage i'd muster wasn't enough. I failed over and over again. My physical strenght was overshadowed by the force of my mind and my emotion was the focal point in dealing all the events in my life. I was so frustrated. I put a glue in my own dillema and accepted it as it was. I moved one step forward but caught in stepping two backward again and again.

Who gave me a chance? Who inspired me to change the course of my plight? I had a chance to talked to my family during the hardest battle. I've asked my Mom where did i go wrong? Why after all the sacrifices i made, i'm still the victim of unjust and unfairly deeds? My Mom answered me only with these phrase "COME BACK WITH US, WE MISSED OUR KULABHING". From that day, i stays firmed in my desire to go back to my roots, to go back to my home where i can truly find true acceptance and true care. Then, out of nowhere someone offered me a precious gift: love and friendship. A life that sometimes i thought i am not worthy of.

Chance means change for me. I'm glad it's not too late to begin my journey.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Love Quotes

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two" (Captain Corelli's Mandolin)


"It is probably not love that makes the world go around, but rather those mutually supportive alliances through which partners recognize their dependence on each other for the achievement of shared and private goals" (Fred Allen)


"Forgiveness is the final form of love" (Reinhold Niebuhr)

"Love is not weakness. It is strong. Only the sacrament of marriage can contain it" (Boris Patersnak)

"Love is the only force capable of transforming an enemy into friend" (Martin Luther King)

"Love is like a friendship caught on fire: In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable" (Bruce Lee)

"Where love rules, there is no will to power; and where power predominates, there love is lacking. The one is the shadow of the other" (Carl Jung)

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her" (Unknown).

"True love is eternal, infinite, and always like itself. It is equal and pure, without violent demonstrations: it is seen with white hairs and is always young in the heart."(Honore de Balzac)

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Mirror

The Family



"How you treat your Mom tells who you are"
Happy Birthday to one of my favorite teacher in high school Mrs. Salud Regalado

Yakap Na Pangarap


Pasikot sikot sa madilim na eskinita,
Bitbit ang sardinas na lata,
Kalansing ng isang sentimo,
Isang musika na nakakapanlulumo.

Hapong-hapong ang mukha,
Tumatagaktak ang pawis,
Boses namamaos,
Sa maghapong pamamalimos,

Minamasdan ang paligid,
Walang kislap,
Nababalot ng lumbay,
Sa taghirap na paglalakbay.

Natatakam sa sorbetes,
Naglalaway sa tsokolate,
Nakahilerang tsinelas sa bangketa,
Kailan mabibili?

Kumikislap na ang Parol,
Sana may noche buena sa hapag,
Naririnig na karoling,
Sana si Santa Klaus dumating.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Three Tourist Destinations

The planned was to attend the Halloween Party in Ugnayan Center. It was an election of officers too but it changed drastically because i got bored in waiting for Ate Melba. I admit i'm not a fan of waiting, i got easily irritated when i wait for too long. Ate Joy was kind enough to noticed i am getting pissed-off so we decided to have an adventure.

The weather was crazy. In the morning it was winter but at noon it was hot, like summer. Funny thing was, our clothes was for the winter. (hahaha) We waited for the store to open because i needed to buy a new sandal fits for the long walk.

Gosh, Ate Melba came at around 1pm. The 8am meeting time but i'm okey with it because we had a chanced to see all the nice spot around Taipei City. We went to Botanical Garden, Chiang Kai-Shek Park and Taipei Zoo. We set aside the main purpose why we took our day-off. We never made it to the Halloween Party.
What: Taipei Zoo
Where: Muzha
When: October 31,2010
Taipei Zoo is the largest zoo in Asia. It was founded in 1914, was a private zoo owned by a japanese Mr. Oe. After the world war II has ended it became a public zoo.
The Main entrance, right side is the ticketing booth. Tickets, adults NT$65 while kids are NT$40. Transportation is not a problem. From main station going to muzha its the last stop so it's not quiet hard for us. No complications for the first timer like us. We just enjoyed the ride.
With Ate Melba and Ate Joy.
Mini train going up





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What: National Democratic Memorial Hall/ Chiang Kai-Shek Park
Where: Heart Of Taipei
When: October 31,2010

The National Chiang Kai-shek Memorial Hall (traditional Chinese: 國立中正紀念堂; simplified Chinese: 国立中正纪念堂) is a famous monument erected in memory of Chiang Kai-shek, former President of the Republic of China. It is located in Taipei, Taiwan, Republic of China.

The monument, surrounded by a park, stands at the east end of Liberty Square. The structure is framed on the north and south by the National Theater and National Concert Hall. The entire plaza is located within sight of the Presidential Office Building. (source from Wikepedia)





The famous entrance wall.
What a coincedence, when we came it was in the middle of the program. Chiang Kai-Shek 124th birthday.
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Destination: Botanical Garden
Where: Nan Hai Road, Taipei City
When: October 31,2010


The Botanical Gardens are home to a beautiful lotus pond and large gardens lined with a wide variety of plants and trees. The walkways are dotted with signs explaining the classification of different flora, making a visit here quite an educational experience. Sitting on a bench under the covering of the tall trees is a great way to relax. The gardens are so vast that it is easy to forget that you are actually in a large city.



The garden was established in 1921 and has always been the landmark of Taipei citizens. Due to the large number of species of plants, Botanical Garden has always been a great place for academic research or artists’ photographing and painting place. This eight hectare garden contains 17 districts with various plants. It has over 1500 species of plants that includes trees, succulent herbs, robust flowering plants, elegant gymnosperms, ferns, and medicinal plants among other species. The highlight of the garden is the lotus pond.



The Bridge. When you're walking ing the wooden bride you will feel the nature, like your in the forest. The humming of birds, the sounds of leaves, and the wind, perfect escape from the busy city and loaded work.

The atmosphere could have been very nice but they have nothing in bloom. There is a large pond and walkways. It was a huge disappointment. The very famous pond in which home of lotus and other plants were off season. Not a single flower float, no such luck. :(


The entrance of Museum. The very friendly tourist from Australia voluntered for us to take a picture. Thank you. :)